part of me i can('t) erase

dah 2 bulan berlalu sejak peristiwa itu...well, i keep saying to myself it's time to move on, that it's really not worth everything about me, that i deserve better one...but "the thing" just won't let me go, at least for now..

In the very beginning of the new line of my life (new line i was forced to make, because the last paragraph was "terminated" somehow:( there were rather gloomy days i've gone through. But thanks to my dear friends around me who keep supporting and give me the power to go through those days. You guys were really helpful. You guys made me stronger day by day.

but in the time i was alone,,the thought, the flasback, the memories would just drop in uninvited, reaping myself from the inside, so sick of it it turn myself from silent cried to a completely mute anger (zingg...--")

I was so desperate at first, I felt God was really unfair to me this time, I thought He granted me what really was the opposite of my wish. I was so sad my heart cried so often (I didn't cry it out of course, what a psycho) until I came to the point I said to myself "well, not yet finish? when will you stop begging like this? aren't you embarass with urself?" "YOU DESERVE BETTER!"

From the time i decide i have to move on...well my mind, my logic are ready to move on..maybe my heart not yet...

*i wrote this blog because my nap was disturbed by....ah u know...flashback 'n sumthin like that..they just won't budge *lebay

that's all...hope i write again sometime...bye